Silver

I'm kinda hating the way I act. I hate how I bring people down and how I get annoyed at certain people. Sometimes I sound so retarded in front of people and it's just like "okay?" Sometimes it feel as though I can't relate to people, I can't talk to people. I'm just some awkward person trying to bring up a conversation. Sometimes, I feel like running away and go somewhere where no one else will be there. Just me and that acre of land. Then I don't have to talk to anyone, I don't have to make fun of people, I don't have to listen to the rude remarks people give me, I don't have to get mad at anyone. It'll just be me and God and maybe some animals. Live till the day grows old.
I just feel so...useless. I don't want to die of course. I still want to experience life that God has given me, but right now, everything is going wrong. But I still have to know that everything will be alright because God is always with me. Even right now. I can feel his spirit; trying to comfort me and telling me that everything will be alright. I do hope everything will go back to zero.
Pray and living is the only thing i can do right now.