Bad case of the Uglies

My knees need to GET BETTER! D:<

damn school.

Shout for Joy

I feel like I'm wasting my life. And how come I feel like this? Blame fantasy.
Media & propoganda are corrupting my life. How I want to be like them yet, in reality, it's fake. Or is it?

I need to erase all of this, get back to reality. I need some music to calm me down.

Zetsu

hello all. I feel like I have given up. I'm not motivated.

On the bright side, I have come back to church. I know this will be better for me. Welcome home.

tears from your eyes

Being an adolescence sucks. Period.

Happy Thanksgiving

It's Junior year now and I'm pretty happy this year. I've come out of my bubble and I'm living again! ahaha. Today is Thanksgiving and I can feel the holiday spirit. It feels more like Christmas than Thanksgiving. :O I used to be pretty creative during my sophmore year (during my "depressed" days). Now I'm just...plain. All the creativity washed away this year. :( Whatever.
I'm starting to be closer to some friends and farther apart from others. It makes me sad, but what is there to do? Man, it's Thanksgiving and I'm on the computer. Anyways I'm thankful for a lot of things. Too lazy to list them out.

Jewels aren't valuable.

I'm still hating my life which I really wished I didn't. Sometimes, I feel so lonely and it feels as though I'm drifting away from my friends. I can't laugh and smile with them like I used to. Not caring what anyone thought about me. I was so carefree. What happened? I wasn't so paranoid about my friends hating me, but now I am. Stressing out. It really just makes me miserable. Maybe I'm being to selfish. It feels that I want to be the center of attention. I think I got too used to it. Everyone thought I was funny, I was nice, all that stuff. I'm trying too hard to please them, be nice to them and yet, it feels that they're just using me. I always feel like moving to Malaysia. Maybe I should have stayed there to study. Start a new life.
Also, I'm being so lazy in my academics. I'm not trying. I just don't know what I'm going to do in the future. I sometimes get the fear of failing. Regretting everything and wishing that I should have worked harder during high school. I keep telling myself that and yet, here I am doing nothing to change that.

You have those Jewels in your hand, but they're useless. How will it help me?
Money? Greed ruins the heart.